I woke up with a weird attitude and it kept getting worse thru the day. I couldn't decide on my first exercise class and finally ended up in pilates by default. All the others were full. The instructor just assumed everyone was an expert and did not give modifications for the exercises and I got really frustrated and angry. I've never done pilates before and was having a hard time. I got mad at myself for not being able to do it and not asking for help. I just let it stew inside me and rot my attitude more. By lunch time I was bored and tired of the program and I really wanted to quit. Same feelings I get after a week on any diet or exercise program. I saw there was a pattern at least. So after lunch I went home and sulked for a while. Then I mentally slapped myself in the face and said to my self "Karen, if your bored, change it and make it work". So I got up (skipped the remainder 2 exercise classes) took a shower, did my hair, put on real clothes for the first time in a week (no, didn't feel any change in how they feel yet) put on make up and made a plan to rent a car and go out. My room mate Kelleen was up for it, so after dinner I took a taxi to the small airport here on the island and rented a car. There was luckily only 1 left... (did I mention SMALL airport??) It was an SUV and more than I planned on paying but this was about me taking my power back and doing everything I could to get thru this funk. Anyway, I got the car picked up Kelleen and we went to see 'When In Rome'. Skipping the popcorn wasn't so bad, I had a small diet coke to keep my hands busy. Driving past all the restaurants and wine bars wasn't as hard as I thought it would be either. I wanted my night out to be about empowerment, not cheating and feeling guilty like all the other times I've ended up quitting.
So today is a slack day at H3I. We are going to breakfast, taking the 2 exercise classes offered, having our healthy lunch then going out shopping before I return the car.
Tonight is a superbowl party with healthy snack options, so I will be late getting home and will not have time to blog.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend. I love and miss you all!
Karen
Whatever it takes to help you thru "the funk". As always, I love you and will see you in a couple of weeks
ReplyDeleteThings that are hard to do, are not easy. Sometimes getting pissed gets you to the next level. Get mad and keep moving, you will come out ahead. Im thinking of you often and wishing you the very best. GO GO GRRRR!!!
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Brenda
I gotta mentally slap myself around too every once in a while. Pilates IS hard if you've never done it before-I would be upset too-but you got past it, and didn't quit!!!! That's such an accomplishment-especially recognizing those patterns in ourselves that keep us from reaching our goals and living the lives we deserve.
ReplyDeleteI'm rooting for you girlfriend! You CAN do it!
XOXO!!!!!!!!